Did Christopher Columbus's Crew Despise Him?

Christopher Columbus set sail in 1492 to find a new route to the east. The reason being that the current route was long and dangerous. He left Spain with three ships and 90 men. He had hoped to find a new route by sailing across the Atlantic. They didn't have the maps and facts about geography that we have today.All they had were legends and their own imaginations. The morale of  Columbus's crew was quickly fading and ready to turn on him. The following selection is a passage from his log.

Sunday,September 9th 1492
This day  we completely lost sight  of land, and many men sighed and wept for fear they would  not see it again for a long time. I comforted them with great promises of lands and riches. To sustain their hope and dispel their fears of a long voyage, I decided to reckon fewer leagues than we actually made. I did this that they might not think themselves so great a distance from spain as they really were. For myself I will keep a confidential accurate reckoning.

I am having serious trouble with the crew, despite the signs of land  that we have and those given to us by almighty God, the more God shows the men manifest signs that we are near land, the more their impatience and inconstancy increases, and the more indignant they become against me. All day long and all night long those who are awake and able to get together near close to talk to each other in circles, complaining that they will never be able to return home. They have said that it is insanity and suicidal on their part to risk their lives following the madness of a foreigner.

They have said that not only am I willing to risk my life just to become a great lord, but that I have deceived them to further my ambition. They have also said that because my proposition has been contradicted by so many wise and lettered men who considered it vain and foolish,that may excused for whatever might be done in the matter. Some feel that they have already arrived where men have never dared to sail and that they are not obliged to go to the end of the world, especially if they are delayed anymore and will not have sufficient provisions to return. I am told by a few trusted men that if I persist in going onward, the best course of action will be to throw me into the sea some night.

From: The Log of christopher columbus,translated by Robert H.Fuson.(Camden,Maine:International Marine Publishing,1987). Copyright 1987 by Robert H. Fuson.